Second Lead Syndrome

Love is defined as a chemical reaction that our brain releases. That’s just it. Like other things, I wouldn’t believe in it if it doesn’t have a scientific explanation. Ever since that has been my perception. Until that day, when he barged into my life without any warning at all.

I never disobeyed my parents. Which is exactly why when they told me to take an entrance exam for Pedro Guevara High School, I did. Call it dull, but I had no interest in anything that time, especially love. And while waiting outside the exam room, I saw him. And for unexplained reasons my heart skipped a beat, at the same time stopped. Frankly saying, I think I only found out that I did have a heart when he entered my life.

But there was no chance that I'd talk to him. And I guess this is where fate meddles, because at the very first day of 7th grade, he was surprisingly my classmate. Who turned out to be the very first friend I had. I was denying the fact that I did like him though, because I still didn’t believe in love. But as he was getting along with other girls, there was always this unexplained pain in my heart. Like, the time he cried in our classroom because his phone got confiscated. I was handing out my water bottle so he could drink, but some girl showed up and offered hers; he didn’t choose mine. I guess that was my confirmation about my feelings.

However, I remained by his side, as his friend. And then 8th grade happened in which we separated. Funny thing is, I thought that as long as you don’t see the person your feelings disappear. I guess that thought of mine was wrong. 8th grade...we were still friends. But not that close. That time I often thought what a heartbreak would feel like. I found out the answer to that...when I saw him, hugging another girl.

Other highlights here are, the acquaintance party during 9th grade, JS prom also in 9th grade, and 10th grade acquaintance party. That day of the entrance exam... It was April 5, 2016. It is funny that this didn’t turn out much of a story... And the funnier thing? This happened in reality. Funniest? I’m still in love with the person I’m referring to in this story.

To that weird dude who took STEM. I’m still not giving up, and I’m still waiting. You’re no celebrity and you’re not famous, but you can consider me your fan. Someone who is cheering you on with your dreams, even if I’m not a part of them. Someone who is praying for you to reach your goals, even if you can’t see me. Even if to you I’m invisible. Even if I’m just a second lead character in your story, I’d still take that if it means being a part of your life. I love you, L.J.